There are so many things in flux in my life. Too many. I feel overwhelmed to be honest. When I feel overwhelmed, I sit on the floor with my face in my hands and refuse to do anything.
Well, metaphorically speaking.
Truthfully, I back away for a bit and sort of ignore things. It's terrible, I know, but eventually I get back to life and fix it all. Right now there are things I need to do and things I long to do. I wasn't really sure what the longing was for until I meditated: What am I wanting?
I want to dance.
I want a dress - a red dress, a sexy red dress - that moves with every shake of my hips. I want Spanish guitar and percussion. I want hair down to my ass. I want to feel every bit of air and energy surrounding me. I want a dark room and hardwood floors so that the echo of my shoes becomes part of the music. I want to feel that thrill, that passion, that dance used to bring me.
I need it.